Well I just did something that makes me feel like the worst human being on Earth
But of course I’m not going to say what.
And I don’t feel like I shouldn’t have said what I did.
Because if I hadn’t the other person wouldn’t have had any explanation or way to understand.
But emails are notoriously easy to misinterpret.
And they live a long way away so there’s a time lag.
But I love them.
A lot.
A lot a lot.
And now I’m sad but I needed to say it and I did my best to put it all carefully and kindly and honestly so it’s all true and I think I did the right thing so I shouldn’t be sad but I still am and it hurts.
Why.