I know saying you’re ‘emotionally bruised’ is a bit of a cliche but I really feel like that right now. Every time I see or read yet another awful thing about the state of the world or the idiotic behaviour of people (who I know are a small part of it, but are still a part of it) I just, I can’t handle it. I’ve been crying so often my eyes are sore constantly and the smallest thing is enough to set me off again. My heart hurts. It’s got into my dreams. I feel so responsible and yet I don’t feel able to do anything, and I feel like I must, that I have to stay positive and strong and keep smiling and drawing to help people because that’s all I’ve ever been able to do to help but I am just so tired and sad. I keep feeling sick. I have since the election- not even since the result came out, since the vote actually started- like all of this was never meant to happen. I know people are half-joking about this being a doomed timeline or the ‘darkest path’ in a multiverse but I can’t shake the feeling that there’s something to it. I feel like something somewhere along the line has gone wrong so badly that it’s not even fixable. The world is sick and I’ve become infected with it too, and as much as I want to stop it I think I need a time out, if not to prevent me getting more ill then at least to prevent me from spreading it, because I can’t stop thinking and talking about it like this.

I hope I stop feeling like this soon. I’m taking a day off from tumblr and twitter and I know that seems like sticking my head in the sand but I think I need to remove myself, just until some of these bruises are less sensitive.